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loneliness

i've been staring at the create post page for hours. i can't seem to compose my thoughts. i don't know whether to say, and how to say. i don't think it lies why my lack of linguistic ability to express myself...

i've been pretty glum this week. i know why, but i can't say. no, not here. haha. i can't speak my thoughts in my personal online journal. joke of the week. if no one's reading this, i'd probably blurt out all the rotten emotions that have been bothering me.

then again, sometimes i crave for the attention, the sympathy, be it pretentious or genuine. but i also don't like people to see me when i'm in a pathetic state. i guess its a male's ego. the wretched trait of a male i can't shake off.

let me be honest here. i don't like bowing down to others. as much as i may crave for even the tiniest bit of sympathy from others, i seek no one for comfort. even if i did seek people out, it would have taken a lot of effort from me to do it.

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i quote from somewhere "i don't want to be like the loners and losers"
why group losers with loners? i guess i'm pretty loner-ish, but am i loser-ish too?

why am i loner-ish?
cos i don't mix with my friends a lot.
why not?
cos i want to leave my time for my girlfriend.
silly or sweet?
you tell me.

loneliness shouldn't come out from the mouth of one who's attached, right?

think again...
Do.You.Know.Me?

elson.out

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