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jealousy

jealousy: mental or emotional uneasiness.

is jealousy a good or bad thing? i was taught from young that jealousy has a negative implication/connotation/element to it, but as i got older, it seems like that being jealous can be good sometimes, especially in relationships.

i don't like to show that i'm jealous. it makes me look very unreasonable, and also very childish. this is why i try to pretend as if everything's alright, even though it doesnt feel good inside. and this feeling is made worse when you think i am not concerned for you enough, that i don't treasure you enough.

i don't know how to tell this to you in person, but this is how i feel if you ask me if you should work - you've got a choice between the moolah and me. if its because i have more time with you now that i'm serving 8-5pm NS that you choose to work on sundays, i'd rather serve a 5-day week and at least get to see you for a whole day. i mean, remember "maybe someone else will have more time for me"? now that i have "more time" already, isn't it funny that you'd wanna use that full day to work? hur, hope i didn't sound angry. i'm just... confused. :S

still, i love you as much :)

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