blasting stereos...

the twisted smile... ...

i sense it coming already,
the dreaded period
the dark onslaught of the exams
taking away all my time
and never returning it back to me.
what little time i have left
to be with you

you probably never felt it
but i was really brooding over it today
and the feeling was..
well, go figure.
did i manage to hide my disappointment?
i really wanted to treasure every bit of time
that both you and i can fork out
and make the best of it
but...?

...but.
(btw, if you don't know what the thing is after "but", its a full-stop)

i dont blame anyone for not sensing it
not you either
'cos i admit the mask fits pretty well on me
it always did
though i also have to acknowledge that its gotten a little tight
rather, i've gotten a bit 'oversized'
bloated with unexplored emotions
unseen, unheard...

i'm definitely not the kind of people who will pour things out
ironic, you say, considering that i'm blogging now?
shall i point out to you that there are stuff i left out?

sad music just sucks when you're down, you know that?
no, i'm not listening to them
is it no wonder why people drown their unhappiness by flooding their ears with loud music?
it feels better
i rather be feeling it in the head than in the chest
well, i just like throbbing heads better.

and now, i shall just douse myself in the cold shower.
elson.out.

** this entry is not posted to upset anyone and do not assume the identity of "you"

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