blasting stereos...

think and comprehend.

Today's MSN nick : right.. so you have started your 'curfews' again huh, stupid computer..
Song anchored in my head : -none-
Current Mood : so-so
Trying to portray the me who: just feel like blogging

Gothic
we seek to break away from the conventional
and seeking alternative perspectives
but are we doing it too often
that it becomes a habit/routine?
in doing so arent we creating a form in itself?
by deeming something gothic,
arent we classifying the supposed unclassifiable?
so how unconventional is gothic?
chew on that.

Common Factors
*this is not maths-related

the majority disliked him
a couple were alright
and a minority hated him
i guess this is how we can work together
together towards a common goal.

we bitch and curse
but we just talk
no actions taken
what for?
i guess we felt it wasnt necessary
using him as the binding agent for the band,
i'd say, is pretty alright.
besides, we can let off some steam like that too.

as to who this dislikeable guy is,
i guess, is quite needless to say.
i do hold grudges against him,
but not at a personal level,
if you know what i mean.
when do you deem a person a bad leader?
when he doesnt produce results?
when he just talks and never does?
or when he doesnt do anything?
actually i was, or rather, am a complacent person
everyone knows that.
i was band major.
true, i did not do much.
i may not have led my people
(i'm not Moses, mind you)
but i'm still respected for the little that i've done.
why?
because i'm likeable?
or because i solve problems MY way?
i do not talk much
but goes behind the scenes are usually left unseen.
i do not get much recognition.
but i gained the respect anyway.
i'm not saying that i'm superior
just that perhaps you should place yourself in the shoes of others.
as i did.
and look at things from a different perspective.
read me right.
it works.

juniors
i'm unsure of who to assign to which stand.
but so far this layout seems plausible.
i think.
some may not approve of my unorthodox methods
i like to try new things
pardon me
i like to do what people thing is not possible.
but why listen to hearsay
experience it and be your own judge.
you may like what others thing is wrong
sometimes it does work out right.
never say cannot till you really know it,
so sayeth elson.
the sitting arrangement i had was with a purpose
i like people to know what their counterparts are playing
listen, and balance.
it trains your hearing.
well it trained mine.
i think.
so do work with me.
let us learn together.

myself
flaws i may have
but perfectionist i think i am.
i shall not play first
not because i slack
but because i do not meet my expectations
i have a very short playing range.
beyond that my tone goes wayward.
so pardon me
i choose not to play
what is not beauty to the ears.
"do your best, or dont do it at all"
so sayeth elson, again.
a perfectionist, nonetheless,
is never a good thing.
things other than music
i may not care more for
as you all probably know
but as a musician
i expect a lot for myself.

i do not bury myself in self-condemnation
but i do expect a certain focus
not only from myself
but from my counterparts as well.

do not free me from this wretched mindset.
i like it the way it is.
all i ask for...
is acknowledgement.
elson- blabbering. out.

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