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W.O.L.S

Today's MSN nick : itchy and sensitive to touch elson's sunburned!?
Song anchored in my head : "If I Let You Go" by Westlife (erm got such a song?)
Current Mood : fine
Trying to portray the me that is: retarded

thats me, today
i was just thinking back
my conversation two days back
okay, wait, for those who dont know
the different personality types
D = Direct, Decisve and Dominant;
I = Influencing, Optimistic and Rowdy;
S = Stable, Steady and Understanding;
C = Correct, Precise and Analytical;
guess which group do i belong to?
i'm type-S, with a pinch of type-C
u people think i'm really like that?
i bet most of you people out there
would think i am type-I
but what is reality?
let me ask you this
do you really know me enough?
(ok, i may sound abit pissed, but i'm not)
actually i dont blame you
cuz i don't like to reveal myself

i feel like i'm wearing a mask
this is not my first time saying this
i may appear cheerful and carefree
but is it real?
honestly,
you wouldnt want me to be who i am
for those who really know me enough
in which i feel using one hand to count
would be more than sufficient,
i really appreciate it. =)
(actually i can think of 3 persons,
in which one of em really know me)

i can hide most of my feelings
it never feels good
but it feels good knowing that people
arent affected by me
i dont trust easily
maybe its the way i was brought up,
but i really wish to be able to trust
at least, okay, someONE
someone whom i can show
the elson without his mask
the elson who still thinks
and worries
just like everyone else
i do want to be carefree
and i know that i cannot
if i dont trust
i'm not unfeeling
its just that i dont have anyone
to be feeling towards
i do have love
but i hide it

why dont i trust?
or love?
or care?
the reason is that these
factors
are the keys that would open
the doors to the real elson
and with that,
i may have to experience hurt
it has been a gamble
be it to trust, love or care
but its a risk i'm willing to take
how about you?
elson- unmasked. out.

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