blasting stereos...

a rainy afternoon....

hmmm.. elson's dad is back... but sadly.. he's (dad) having a fever... guess he over exhausted himself... oh rite.. he saw evonne, the taiwanese barbie doll.. think her name is xu hui xin, at the airport while waiting for my dad.... hmm.. yup... elson's suddenly deep in thought.. that look in his eyes... i wonder what do they mean... hmm.. i guess they look pretty dead today.. in fact... i think they look dead everyday... guess wad ppl.. elson's gotta do a love poem again... damn... he aint the lovey-dovey kinda guy... love is not the thing for him i tell u... haha.. that robot... suddenly i feel like he's been avoiding someone... actually i think i noe why he's avoiding that person... oh by the way... the person is not a guy... it was someone special... several times i saw him taking out his hp.. wanting to msg that person... but... i dunno.. he just didnt.. hate and love are actually separated by a thin red line... in fact.. i think the boundaries are kinda blurred... erasing the fond memories of the past aint easy... repressing his emotions aint the thing either... wat is bad is that the memories flash back frequently... everytime he sees that person from afar walking in his direction, he'll pretend he din see... or put his head on the table... man.. this kinda attitude aint wat u ppl think he possesses rite? sometimes he tries so hard... to forget the past he tries to engage himself in many forms of activities... tennis, bowling.. running.. man.. he has a phobia to play his keyboard now actually.. becuz it'll bring back alot of memories... why does he wanna do all this stuff? man.. he just wans the apologise to the person now... "sorry for not keeping my promise..." he feels that he's been very selfish... he never feels good abt breaking his promises... he does not promise ppl very easily cuz he's afraid he'll break em... alas he still broke the very promise he made to this special someone... unfortunately he doesnt really want to show how he feels outside... not even in front of that special someone.. but i wonder.. if that special someone sees him very happy, will she be depressed? or if that special someone sees him very depressed.. will she feel sad too? a chinese song kept repeating itself in his mind... "huang hun"... this very song made his frozen, emotionless face cringe.... i dun mean now... that was like aeons ago.. but still.. i guess he'll never forget this song.. another song is "hei se you mo"... haha.. u may be wondering why does elson listen to mandarin songs... actually.. he feels that chi songs are more 'heartfelt'.. if u noe what i mean... hmm.. its raining here in yishun... with the silence, cold lonely afternoon.. (perfect for flashbacks, in which he doesnt wan) he is reminded of the times he spent with that special someone... but he's refusing to acknowledge the fact that he was happy then... ok lahz.. he cant take it no more.. lolx.. i also dun wanna say any further le.. good day to u all...

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